I used to be pretty secretive back then.
But now,
I freely talk about everything.
Literally everything,
to everyone.
Not literally everyone,
but still..
Feeling so exposed.
Errgh.
Sunday, September 25, 2016
Saturday, June 11, 2016
This Lazy Fellow ep1
This is a story of very inactive indoor person.
Because that person is me.
In other words, that person loves staying at home. Preferably in laying position like a log with phone or laptop open and fast internet connection. spazzing and trolling online and can stay like that for like..ever. trust me i know.
However one day, after her broadband reach limit quota, this fellow suddenly achieved a state of realization that she has been living like a corpse, not tasting a real sunlight flashing thorough her pale skin, not feeling the warm windy brushes her dry cheek, and not even utter any words to other people! She decided to roll out from bed, out from her room and ...receiving big claps from her family members
"finally, she's out!" said them proudly. She chuckles as she walks to the main door, opening it, taking a deep breath while feeling everything with an open hand.
"Yeah, the mission done!"
Now she rolls back in her blanket deep deep inside her own dark world.
To be continue..
Friday, March 11, 2016
SMS Misteri
Misteri lah sangat.
(Amaran: Kisah ini 70% benar dan selebihnya telahpun ditambah oleh penulis yang terlalu banyak terpengaruh dengan drama picisan)
Pernah tak kalian dapat SMS dari nombor yang tidak dikenali? Selalu je kan. Sama ada member korang yang baru tukar nombor saja gatal nak mengacau text hai boleh berkenalan ataupun dari nombor scammer menyatakan yang anda telah memenangi sejumlah wang sekian sila reply YES dan apa sajalah taktik mereka nak menipu. Tapi tu dulu. Memandangkan zaman internet dan social media seperti whatsapp, wechat dan seumpama dengannya berleluasa sekarang, maka jaranglah kita nak terima sms dari seseorang. Paling-paling pun sms dari mobile operator menyatakan kredit yang hampir tamat tempoh.
Namun nak dijadikan cerita, satu hari yang lapang tidak ku sangka satu sms penuh dengan perasaan dan kepanjangan yang lebar dihantar masuk ke inbox ku yang sunyi.
"Siapa pula gerangan nombor ini?" Monologku sendiri ala-ala heroin sinetron.
Lalu ku membuka mesej itu dengan penuh perasaan ingin tahu. Mak oii panjangnya! Sementelah aku memang suka membaca mesej panjang, lalu ku hayati dan refleksi kan setiap kandungan. (Malahan aku hampir membuat literature review mengenainya!)
Disini aku lampirkan text mesej tersebut bulat-bulat tanpa sebarang edit, sentuhan mahupun hiasan dalaman.
(Amaran: Kisah ini 70% benar dan selebihnya telahpun ditambah oleh penulis yang terlalu banyak terpengaruh dengan drama picisan)
Pernah tak kalian dapat SMS dari nombor yang tidak dikenali? Selalu je kan. Sama ada member korang yang baru tukar nombor saja gatal nak mengacau text hai boleh berkenalan ataupun dari nombor scammer menyatakan yang anda telah memenangi sejumlah wang sekian sila reply YES dan apa sajalah taktik mereka nak menipu. Tapi tu dulu. Memandangkan zaman internet dan social media seperti whatsapp, wechat dan seumpama dengannya berleluasa sekarang, maka jaranglah kita nak terima sms dari seseorang. Paling-paling pun sms dari mobile operator menyatakan kredit yang hampir tamat tempoh.
Namun nak dijadikan cerita, satu hari yang lapang tidak ku sangka satu sms penuh dengan perasaan dan kepanjangan yang lebar dihantar masuk ke inbox ku yang sunyi.
"Siapa pula gerangan nombor ini?" Monologku sendiri ala-ala heroin sinetron.
Lalu ku membuka mesej itu dengan penuh perasaan ingin tahu. Mak oii panjangnya! Sementelah aku memang suka membaca mesej panjang, lalu ku hayati dan refleksi kan setiap kandungan. (Malahan aku hampir membuat literature review mengenainya!)
Disini aku lampirkan text mesej tersebut bulat-bulat tanpa sebarang edit, sentuhan mahupun hiasan dalaman.
First sekali, tabik spring juga pada kalian jika berjaya habiskan baca sms tulus ikhlas murni lagi berhemah dari Encik Taqiyy ni. *clap clap*
Kedua, aku ni dahla kaki drama dapat pula mesej dramatik macam ni out of nowhere! Jarang pula tu nak jumpa lelaki yang sanggup taip panjang-panjang untuk meluahkan perasaan hantar melalui sms pula tu, dahla beliau nombor celcom hantar ke maxis, berapa sen la caj agaknya! Belum apa-apa aku dah ship Taqiyy dan Hanna siap bagi nama couple mereka 'Qiyna'. Sedap kan nama tu? *proud face*
Tapi masalahnya Encik Taqiyy ni salah nombor hantar ke saya buat apa! Saya ni cuma orang kebanyakan yang kalau watak dalam drama tu yang lalu lalang kat belakang tu je!
Sejurus lepas tu aku dapat mesej dari nombor yang sama lagi.
Dah sudah, siap minta nombor parents pula, nombor si Hanna ni pun kau boleh silap alahai Taqiyy oiii.. Nasib kau tak call nanti terkejut dengar suara cheq yang macam 'Patamon bertukarrrr Angemon' ni, culture shock kau nanti. *lol
-Ok kembali mode dramatik-
Aku dah mula dilema.
Patut ke aku reply "wrong number" terus dekat Encik Taqiyy ni? Atau patut ke aku diam seribu bahasa seperti gadis yang pemalu? Atau paling keji, patut ke aku menyamar jadi Hanna dan memberikan beliau harapan palsu?
Lalu aku pun melilau mencari sesiapa untuk bertanyakan pendapat.
Kakak, 23 tahun. Seorang peminat drama dan variety show korea. Pendapatnya berbunyi;
"Jangan reply, kau buatlah macam cerita Pinocchio..biar dia fikir kau Hanna dan terus hantar mesej apa-apa pada kau.. Last sekali bila da bosan baru kau reply saya bukan Hanna. Biar dia broken heart. Padan muka!"
Aku rasa kakakku ada masalah dalam rasionaliti dan cenderung melihat kesengsaraan orang lain jadi aku cepat-cepat berlalu pergi.
Adik, 15 tahun. Seorang pembaca novel tegar dan aktif dalam kegiatan kokurikulum sekolah. Dia dengan teruja nya;
"Kau kena cakap kau bukan Hanna! Balas mesej dia, jangan buat Taqiyy ternanti seorang diri di airport!"
"Tapi dia dan Hanna kan da berpisah. Dia sendiri kata Hanna da move on." Balasku.
"Kau mana tahu! Mungkin Hanna pun menunggu Taqiyy untuk hubungi nya. Mungkin selama ini Hanna cuma pura-pura bahagia tetapi dalam diam dia sentiasa mengharapkan Taqiyy untuk kembali memujuk dan melamarnya. Agaknya sekarang ini mereka berdua saling merindu tapi tak dapat berhubung disebabkan mesejnya sampai pada kau!" Hujah adikk penuh semangat dan kelajuan yang menyebabkan air liur bepercikan.
"Jadi Taqiyy dan Hanna tak dapat bersama, salah aku lah?"
"Ya! Sebab kau sembunyikan mesej ni untuk bacaan sendiri!"
Walaupun adikku ada juga point di situ tetapi kerana beliau sedikit annoying jadi aku hanya membuat muka erghh dan berlalu pergi.
Tanya pada ibu lah. Ibu selalu ada pendapat yang terbaik.
Ibu, 50 tahun. Seorang guru yang dedikasi dan baru-baru ini terjebak (dan sedikit obses) menggunakan Whatsapp. Beliau hanya ketawa (dengan agak hina) kepadaku lalu berkata;
"Apa kata kau saja pergi airport jumpa budak Taqiyy tu. Mungkin dialah jodoh kau yang sebenar. Lagipun umur kau ni dah 21 tahun masih takde boyfriend!"
Ouch.
Tatkala aku masih terpegun dengan tohmahan yang dilemparkan ibu ku itu, aku membuat keputusan untuk membalas mesej Taqiyy.
Apa yang patut aku taip ye?
Sorry, wrong number. But I wish all the best for you and Hanna.
Tak rasa macam menyibuk ke? Tak kisah la, lalu aku pun menekan butang send. Eh da dapat reply?!
RM0: Pls top up to stay active. Dial *122# for more details.
lol -,-
* * * *
Taqiyy bersandar di bangku kerusi, masih menelek barang yang perlu dimasukkan ke bagasi. Di samping itu matanya tak lekang memerhatikan skrin telefon nya.
Menanti.
Sudah beberapa jam berlalu sejak dia menghantar sms biasa tetapi mengandungi perasaan dan harapannya kepada Hanna.
Hanna, cinta pertamanya.
Gadis itu jugalah yang telah dia siakan tatkala diri mula alpa. Dia yang dulu begitu ego, sewenangnya melukakan hati gadis itu tanpa rasa bersalah.
Tetapi kini dia menyesal. Hatinya takkan dapat berubah. Perasaan sayangnya pada Hanna masih kuat. Masih sama seperti mana mereka baru mula bersama dahulu.
Cuma semua dah terlambat.
Bila Hanna tiada di sisi, baru dia sedar betapa pentingnya gadis itu dalam hidupnya yang penuh kesunyian.
Tipikal. Bila sudah tiada baru tahu nak hargai.
Taqiyy membuka semula inbox nya. Memastikan sms itu telah sampai. Tidak mengapa, dia boleh menanti berapa banyak jam lagi untuk Hanna. Masih tak dapat melawan penantian Hanna untuknya selama ini. Sebelum semuanya berakhir.
Dia tekad, jika dia betul cintakan Hanna, dia perlu berjuang untuk mendapatkan gadis itu!
Taqiyy terus merenung telefon nya tanpa dia sedari dia telahpun berada di airport, menyorong bagasinya menanti untuk terbang jauh dari sini.
Dia tersenyum kelat. Nampaknya dia kena berusaha lebih lagi untuk menambat semula hati hanna. Perlahan-lahan dia menaip sesuatu dan dengan mata yang berkaca, Taqiyy mengimbas sekeliling jika terlihat kelibat orang yang dinanti. Hampa, dia meneruskan perjalanannya dengan hati yang berat.
* * * *
"Dia da naik flight da.."
Cerita ku pada adik yang sedang sibuk bershaking di wechat sejurus aku mendapat mesej ketiga nya yang sayu dan sedikit menyayat hati.
"Jadi kau tak reply dia la akhirnya?"
Aku hanya tersengih muka bersalah sambil mengangkat bahu. Biarlah aku hanya menjadi orang asing yang secara rambang mendoakan yang terbaik untuk Taqiyy dan Hanna.
"Semoga kalian berbahagia."
Tamat.
Thursday, March 3, 2016
Shipper?!
Back then when people asked what my hobby is, I will simply say reading or watching tv but now it get more advance with shipping. I will automatically become shipper to the characters that I like.
Ok, What is shipper exactly?
It has two meaning;
Normal people: A person or a company that sends or transports goods by sea, air or land.
Fangirl: A person who wants two characters (in a show) to get together.
(Reference: Google Search)
In my opinion, one of the fun thing to do after you watch some kind of tv series/drama/movie or even read a novel/comic is to ship characters. Its like fundamental thing to do as a fan. Its like a battle whenever the drama still in progress and we will be curious which character will finally end up with. By that, each one of the shipper will also have their own OTP (One True Pairing) especially if the series has a lot of characters and potential scandal. Like one of my used-to-watch-list "Gossip Girl", My OTP would be Blair-Chuck, one of the most complex yet cute couple but I also ship Blair-Dan, two enemies that finally feels both attractiveness and I even ship Blair-Serena! They are so cute together! See how many feels that each fangirl need to carry everytime they watch their OTP moments in a show. *lol
Even as a kid, I already start shipping. Remember a hit series "Gerak Khas" where everyone will ship Inspektor Mazlan with Inspektor Eliza and hoping they will end up together? (such an old-skool example xD)
However shippers nowadays not only limit to ship characters in a series but somehow manage to ship real life people too! People will ship Shah Rukh Khan & Kajol, Akim & Stacy, Taeyeon & Tiffany, Natasha & Elise even Bieber & Gomez and rest of the world (you name it).
And that brings to last part, shipper's type in a fandom world;
So which one are you? *tehee*
Regardless all these, we must set some kind of boundaries that ship is just for fun and you dont need to go till your last blood shed to fight in a fandom war. Still, happy shipping! K bye!
Ok, What is shipper exactly?
It has two meaning;
Normal people: A person or a company that sends or transports goods by sea, air or land.
Fangirl: A person who wants two characters (in a show) to get together.
(Reference: Google Search)
In my opinion, one of the fun thing to do after you watch some kind of tv series/drama/movie or even read a novel/comic is to ship characters. Its like fundamental thing to do as a fan. Its like a battle whenever the drama still in progress and we will be curious which character will finally end up with. By that, each one of the shipper will also have their own OTP (One True Pairing) especially if the series has a lot of characters and potential scandal. Like one of my used-to-watch-list "Gossip Girl", My OTP would be Blair-Chuck, one of the most complex yet cute couple but I also ship Blair-Dan, two enemies that finally feels both attractiveness and I even ship Blair-Serena! They are so cute together! See how many feels that each fangirl need to carry everytime they watch their OTP moments in a show. *lol
Even as a kid, I already start shipping. Remember a hit series "Gerak Khas" where everyone will ship Inspektor Mazlan with Inspektor Eliza and hoping they will end up together? (such an old-skool example xD)
However shippers nowadays not only limit to ship characters in a series but somehow manage to ship real life people too! People will ship Shah Rukh Khan & Kajol, Akim & Stacy, Taeyeon & Tiffany, Natasha & Elise even Bieber & Gomez and rest of the world (you name it).
And that brings to last part, shipper's type in a fandom world;
(Reference: Google Images)
So which one are you? *tehee*
Regardless all these, we must set some kind of boundaries that ship is just for fun and you dont need to go till your last blood shed to fight in a fandom war. Still, happy shipping! K bye!
Promising Plans
Tadaaaaaaa!
So last year i was devastated and worried and complain a lot about my state of body and mind which happened to be not productive at all but the start of new year gave a promising plans for me.
First, on 6th January I started working at Majlis Daerah Kuala Langat as Pembantu Tadbir Kewangan (Sambilan), where I gained lot of knowledges and experiences regarding on how taxes work, what Majlis Daerah actually do (lol i never care about their existence before this) and last but not least, a realization that working with account, money and people is really tiring, stressful and dangerous to eyes (since I kept looking at those numbers on screen, my sight become bad day by day). No wonder I did not take the matriculation offer for accounting. Numbers not for me but money is *shy*.
Okay back to the promising plans; so Alhamdulillah, very much thankful to Allah, I got an offer to pursue my study on TESL in UiTM. ^^
The thing is, I was so busy working so i got no time to prepare much for the university entrance. My last day working was on 26th February and I have to register as new student on 29th February (wuuu leap year) - which you can predict, i rest like a corpse for two whole days. xD
And in offer letter stated that my campus would be at Kampus Seksyen 17 (Intec College) so i expected that it would be near with my house, and i can back every week and i dont need to bring much stuff. Turned out the faculty already moved so here I am, at Puncak Alam feeling stranded and burnt. *laugh and cries*
- too many used of and in a sentence. tsk.
Its only been like what, 4 days? and to think that I have 4 more years to continue life living here. Awesome. Not that I want to complaint, it just the facilities..and the management, its kinda confusing. Its understandable since faculty of education also just moved here (before this on Seksyen 17) so both party; management and students are kinda noobs haha.
Not to mention that moment when your senior is younger than you.
*age is just a number*
However, every part of life will has its own wonderfulness and obstacles and I need to embrace and enjoy it while still can. So, put your smile, bring positive mind, wear comfortable shoes and go ride the stairs! K bye!
p/s: Being the only selangorian in a group of kelantanese never be this challenging. Luckily my contextual clues skill still there somewhere.
So last year i was devastated and worried and complain a lot about my state of body and mind which happened to be not productive at all but the start of new year gave a promising plans for me.
First, on 6th January I started working at Majlis Daerah Kuala Langat as Pembantu Tadbir Kewangan (Sambilan), where I gained lot of knowledges and experiences regarding on how taxes work, what Majlis Daerah actually do (lol i never care about their existence before this) and last but not least, a realization that working with account, money and people is really tiring, stressful and dangerous to eyes (since I kept looking at those numbers on screen, my sight become bad day by day). No wonder I did not take the matriculation offer for accounting. Numbers not for me but money is *shy*.
Okay back to the promising plans; so Alhamdulillah, very much thankful to Allah, I got an offer to pursue my study on TESL in UiTM. ^^
The thing is, I was so busy working so i got no time to prepare much for the university entrance. My last day working was on 26th February and I have to register as new student on 29th February (wuuu leap year) - which you can predict, i rest like a corpse for two whole days. xD
And in offer letter stated that my campus would be at Kampus Seksyen 17 (Intec College) so i expected that it would be near with my house, and i can back every week and i dont need to bring much stuff. Turned out the faculty already moved so here I am, at Puncak Alam feeling stranded and burnt. *laugh and cries*
- too many used of and in a sentence. tsk.
Its only been like what, 4 days? and to think that I have 4 more years to continue life living here. Awesome. Not that I want to complaint, it just the facilities..and the management, its kinda confusing. Its understandable since faculty of education also just moved here (before this on Seksyen 17) so both party; management and students are kinda noobs haha.
Not to mention that moment when your senior is younger than you.
*age is just a number*
However, every part of life will has its own wonderfulness and obstacles and I need to embrace and enjoy it while still can. So, put your smile, bring positive mind, wear comfortable shoes and go ride the stairs! K bye!
p/s: Being the only selangorian in a group of kelantanese never be this challenging. Luckily my contextual clues skill still there somewhere.
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
Bicara Hati
Welcome to Bicara Hati where we talk about heart, feelings and all those lovey dovey yucky stuffs here.
Its not February yet but thats not gonna stop us from talking about love , and for this infamous topic, we specially invited our stars for unknown show that flopped- Bicara Jantung, Tiffany! *clapclap*
Tiffany: Thanks for inviting me to what this show called again?
MC: Bicara Hati.
Tiffany: Is it like your heart talking or something? and to say that this program sounded a lot like my show Bicara Jantung. Are you trying to plagiarize here?
MC: *laugh nervously* Errr.. Ok forget about our unexisted show name. Lets talk about you instead. So Tiffany or should we call you ppani?, we heard that you get into a fight with your significant other, Taetae. Is it true?
Tiffany: *eye-smile* where you get that from? we.. we are happy! *nervous*
MC: We heard from inside source that both of you stop talking for 5 days. Is it true?
Tiffany: 7 days already if today counted.
MC: How come? As people claimed, you guys like the happiest couple. Mind to share the reason of it?
Tiffany: *sigh* Its not really a fight actually. We never yelling or go all crazy to each other.
MC: Then how is it? You guys silently send death threat through a blood letter?
Tiffany: *rolls eyes* It more to the situation where she get mad at me, give me silence treatment and i felt sad and bitter and both of us not talking anymore. Its always like that.
MC: Then who come first to apologize?
Tiffany: Depends on situation. Usually I'm the one who come first, apologize, begging, coax her with sweet words so i can see her smile again. But everytime, no matter whose fault is it, I will be the one who raise white flag first. Its like a habit.
MC: Its okay, the one who surrender doesnt mean they the loser. But how come she keeps getting mad at you? and everytime you need to take care of her feelings. Do you think its fair for you?
Tiffany: Totally unfair! The fight, its always start with her. Always! For ones, i never say something negative to her. I just say normal things in conversation but suddenly she's the one who get upset and boom! silence treatment. demmm i really hate that cold attitude. *almost cry* when i asked her what i did wrong she never talk to me. how im supposed to fix my flaws if she dont want to point it out. Everytime we having a fight, i will try to convice to her to communicate. But she always refuse to talk. She want to keep all inside and dont want to open up with me. For God sake, we have been together for 3 years, and still not improved in that part. Good communication is the key for success relationship, right?
MC: *give tissues* Toitally agreed. Most couple stay for a long time because they share what they felt. They communicate. I think its related with her personality?
Tiffany: Yes, she the quiet type of person so i cannot force her to talk all day, but at least talk to me. Is it too much to ask for?
MC: maybe you the last person she want to talk with while she upset?
Tiffany: Maybe.
MC: this current fight, is it also start with her?
Tiffany: Same cycle. I said something i think common, she get mad. Welcome silence treatment. Oh she even called me annoying. Am i that annoying?
MC: Sometimes.
Tiffany: Thought so. Thats why i didnt take into heart. I just want us to back like normal.
MC: Usually how long the fight last for?
Tiffany: Depends on how fast I try to win her heart back. Normally 2-3 days.
MC: then why this time it lead to 7 days? a week! *shock* you didnt try to coax her back like usual?
Tiffany: I dont know..
MC: I guess you already tired with the fight cycle isnt it?
Tiffany: Kinda. I hope this time she's the one who try to reach me first.
MC: so far?
Tiffany: Nothing. She even removed our picture in her dp whatsapp. - which i found very sad cause i edit that with all of my heart.. and her latest status on wechat implied that we already breakup. *sigh heavily*
MC: What if you guys truly breakup? *shockface*
Tiffany: Please dont say like that! >,<
MC: it can be if both of you stay silent like this. What if even after 14 days she still not contacting you? What if she did nothing to repair your relationship?
Tiffany: If thats happen, i guess im not that important for her.. Or I simply put away all my pain and bitterness and just text her back. Like always.
MC: I'm sorry. I think eveytime both of you fight, she's too ego to admit her feelings, and you too cheap to keep begging and begging *laugh*
Tiffany: *laugh* Yeah im such a weaker when it comes to her.
MC: Still we all know for sure that you guys love each other too much. Just dont let this stupid fight to stop this lovely relationship.
Tiffany: Thanks.
MC: Any last words? To your taetae maybe?
Tiffany: *look straight to camera* Taetae, please text me back! I will waiting for you.
MC: Do you think she will read this post?
Tiffany: No. No one actually read your blog *laugh*
MC: So true! *laugh with mix emotions*
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Tiffany: Heyy how dare you used me as bad example for the sake of advertisement! *bring torch and fork*
MC: *run away*
K bye see you later!
xoxo
Its not February yet but thats not gonna stop us from talking about love , and for this infamous topic, we specially invited our stars for unknown show that flopped- Bicara Jantung, Tiffany! *clapclap*
Tiffany: Thanks for inviting me to what this show called again?
MC: Bicara Hati.
Tiffany: Is it like your heart talking or something? and to say that this program sounded a lot like my show Bicara Jantung. Are you trying to plagiarize here?
MC: *laugh nervously* Errr.. Ok forget about our unexisted show name. Lets talk about you instead. So Tiffany or should we call you ppani?, we heard that you get into a fight with your significant other, Taetae. Is it true?
Tiffany: *eye-smile* where you get that from? we.. we are happy! *nervous*
MC: We heard from inside source that both of you stop talking for 5 days. Is it true?
Tiffany: 7 days already if today counted.
MC: How come? As people claimed, you guys like the happiest couple. Mind to share the reason of it?
Tiffany: *sigh* Its not really a fight actually. We never yelling or go all crazy to each other.
MC: Then how is it? You guys silently send death threat through a blood letter?
Tiffany: *rolls eyes* It more to the situation where she get mad at me, give me silence treatment and i felt sad and bitter and both of us not talking anymore. Its always like that.
MC: Then who come first to apologize?
Tiffany: Depends on situation. Usually I'm the one who come first, apologize, begging, coax her with sweet words so i can see her smile again. But everytime, no matter whose fault is it, I will be the one who raise white flag first. Its like a habit.
MC: Its okay, the one who surrender doesnt mean they the loser. But how come she keeps getting mad at you? and everytime you need to take care of her feelings. Do you think its fair for you?
Tiffany: Totally unfair! The fight, its always start with her. Always! For ones, i never say something negative to her. I just say normal things in conversation but suddenly she's the one who get upset and boom! silence treatment. demmm i really hate that cold attitude. *almost cry* when i asked her what i did wrong she never talk to me. how im supposed to fix my flaws if she dont want to point it out. Everytime we having a fight, i will try to convice to her to communicate. But she always refuse to talk. She want to keep all inside and dont want to open up with me. For God sake, we have been together for 3 years, and still not improved in that part. Good communication is the key for success relationship, right?
MC: *give tissues* Toitally agreed. Most couple stay for a long time because they share what they felt. They communicate. I think its related with her personality?
Tiffany: Yes, she the quiet type of person so i cannot force her to talk all day, but at least talk to me. Is it too much to ask for?
MC: maybe you the last person she want to talk with while she upset?
Tiffany: Maybe.
MC: this current fight, is it also start with her?
Tiffany: Same cycle. I said something i think common, she get mad. Welcome silence treatment. Oh she even called me annoying. Am i that annoying?
MC: Sometimes.
Tiffany: Thought so. Thats why i didnt take into heart. I just want us to back like normal.
MC: Usually how long the fight last for?
Tiffany: Depends on how fast I try to win her heart back. Normally 2-3 days.
MC: then why this time it lead to 7 days? a week! *shock* you didnt try to coax her back like usual?
Tiffany: I dont know..
MC: I guess you already tired with the fight cycle isnt it?
Tiffany: Kinda. I hope this time she's the one who try to reach me first.
MC: so far?
Tiffany: Nothing. She even removed our picture in her dp whatsapp. - which i found very sad cause i edit that with all of my heart.. and her latest status on wechat implied that we already breakup. *sigh heavily*
MC: What if you guys truly breakup? *shockface*
Tiffany: Please dont say like that! >,<
MC: it can be if both of you stay silent like this. What if even after 14 days she still not contacting you? What if she did nothing to repair your relationship?
Tiffany: If thats happen, i guess im not that important for her.. Or I simply put away all my pain and bitterness and just text her back. Like always.
MC: I'm sorry. I think eveytime both of you fight, she's too ego to admit her feelings, and you too cheap to keep begging and begging *laugh*
Tiffany: *laugh* Yeah im such a weaker when it comes to her.
MC: Still we all know for sure that you guys love each other too much. Just dont let this stupid fight to stop this lovely relationship.
Tiffany: Thanks.
MC: Any last words? To your taetae maybe?
Tiffany: *look straight to camera* Taetae, please text me back! I will waiting for you.
MC: Do you think she will read this post?
Tiffany: No. No one actually read your blog *laugh*
MC: So true! *laugh with mix emotions*
Communication is very important for human being. This is the process where we know and understand each other. Try to communicate efficiently with your loved one by buying this ebook - How to communicate effectively with your loved one- only for $1.99 . Get it now before its too late! Dont be like fake taeny couple whom keep fighting because both dont communicate properly!
Tiffany: Heyy how dare you used me as bad example for the sake of advertisement! *bring torch and fork*
MC: *run away*
K bye see you later!
xoxo
Tuesday, January 5, 2016
Dilema budak sekolah.
Edisi Pelajar Tingkatan 4
Apabila cemerlang PT3. Langkah yang seterusnya pula ialah?
"Saya nak pindah MITS Bagan Terap.. Nak ambil sastera.. taknak ambil sains, tak minat.."
Setelah saya mengeluarkan kenyataan itu, ada segelintir pihak yang menyokong, namun lebih banyak yang membantah.
"Ustazah harap tahun depan masih kekal lah 15 orang dalam kelas tasmik ni. Ustazah yakin diantara kamu tiada yang pindah.."
- Guru kelas tasmik yang saya harap dapat khatam dengan beliau.
"Doa-doalah harapnya tiada siapa yang pindah. Bonda nak korang stay je lah kat sini.."
- Mentor yang kami panggil bonda.
"Kalau tak minat sains, minat tu boleh dihadirkan.. kalau nak pindah, ibu tak setuju.."
- Ibu yang mengharap saya ambil sains tulen.
"Jauhlah sekolah tu. Nanti kau cari lah keluarga angkat kat sana.. Ayah ambil waktu hari raya je haha.."
- Ayah yang tak kisah dan suka buat lawak.
"Kau ambil je dulu sains.. Nanti lama-lama kau minatlah.."
- Kakak kedua yang dulu ambil aliran sains.
"Ambil je lah sastera. Kau memang minat bahasa kan? Lagipun kau bukannya nak jadi doktor atau engineer.."
- Kakak ketiga yang memahami.
"Pelik.. orang lain punyalah nak aliran sains ni, kamu dah ada peluang tolak macam tu saja?"
- Kakak usrah yang saja bagi ayat sentap.
"Akak janganlah pindah.. tak meriah lah usrah ni nanti takde akak.."
- Adik usrah yang saya paksa jadi timbalan naqibah kalau saya pindah.
"Hanim.. betul ke nak pindah? Nanti takde sapa nak buat kerja nakal dengan ana. Dirah, Ain, Bosy sume nak pindah. Yang tinggal cuma budak-budak baik je.."
- Kawan dalam batch yang berani buat kerja nakal sama-sama.
"Jomlah nem pindah.. kita naik bas sama-sama nanti balik kampung.."
- Kawan yang sudah merancang masa depan bersama.
"Anem serius ke nak pindah.. stay jelah sini.. mengadalah !!*pastu pukul saya*
- Kawan yang tak sanggup kehilangan saya.
"Kalau awak minat sastera ambil jelah sastera. Yang penting result SPM awak straight As, dapat IPG dan mohon sambung belajar sini. Lagipun kalau ambil bidang macam akak ni memang takde kaitan pun dengan sains tulen.."
- Kakak yang kenal di wechat, belajar di beijing dan menjadi sumber inspirasi saya untuk belajar di China.
"Bagi saya, lebih baik kamu terus kekal di sini. Sebab saya rasa kamu mampu untuk bawa aliran sains ni. Lagi pula mengikut keputusan PT3, kamu layak sangat menyambung persekolahan di sini."
- Guru penolong kanan akademik yang sedaya upaya tak kasi sesiapa pun pindah.
Dan yang terakhir..
Thahirah, kawan perempuan first yang khatam dan dialah orang paling tegar menghalang saya dari pindah.
"Hanim.. janganlah pindah.."
Hanya mampu tersenyum kelat.
Sukar membuat keputusan.
Memilih antara persahabatan, minat, bakat, harapan dan masa depan.
"Saya harap kamu dah ada keputusan yang muktamad hari ambil result nanti. Sebab hari tu, nak atau taknak kamu tetap kena memilih aliran yang mana kamu nak.."
- sambung guru penolong kanan tadi katanya.
Buntu dan dilema.
50% - 50%
Maka sekarang mampu istikharah sahaja dan berserah diri pada Allah untuk berikan petunjuk yang terbaik.
Amin.
Monday, January 4, 2016
#throwback
Inspiring by one of my friend's little sister blog article about how awesome her 2015 summary; I - who depressed and unmotivated throughout last year felt ashamed. To redeem this unstoppable regret, i decided to write my own summary. (not to mention how i never post anything on 2015. do i even alive on that year?)
warning: its boring.
January - March 2015
Still a respectable student enjoying my last semestar.
April 2015
Finished studies.
Now what Im going to do with my life?
May 2015
Start working at Dominos.
Riding motorcycle from Banting to Glenmarie. Everyday. *Proud face*
June 2015
Still working my ass of that company.
July 2015
Unfortunately, I had two road accidents.
1) On my birthday - ironically the present I gave myself were scars, pain and lesson.
2) On 24th - I crashed another motorcyclist. Too bad I have injury everywhere on my left side of body and too stupid, I still going to work right after that. Talking about workaholic here lol.
p/s: and dont worry, still got 3 days MC.
It different from my previous car accident, riding a motorcycle means you exposed all your body to danger and no protection given unless helmet on your head. Alhamdulillah I still alive but I have enough pain and scars so be careful next time thank you. *reminder to myself*
August 2015
Believe it or not, the injury from last accident still affecting me badly which caused my energy to ride a motorcycle for 40km back and forth decreased drastically. I felt overwhelmed how worried my parents are- keep insist me to resign and not to mention, this is the most awaiting month for UPU result to come out. With a big hope of getting place in any public university - I resigned.
And, I did not get any offer.
Depression mode: ON
September 2015
Still depressed.
I who now jobless - trying to find a job nearby.
Too lazy to work.
October 2015
Happy to be free, I finally wore a braces! (been planned this for years)
November 2015
Officially graduated with Diploma in English.
December 2015
TV Show marathon non stop.
Seriously.
wow.
In a nutshell, 2015 taught me how to enjoy myself and stay positive, how to appreciate everything that I have, and most importantly, be grateful and never give up because everything happen for a reason. #seriously #cliche #keepcalmandpray
Last but not least, stop being such a lazy ass.
Oh, suddenly its already 2016. How time flies so fast. Haha k bye!
warning: its boring.
January - March 2015
Still a respectable student enjoying my last semestar.
April 2015
Finished studies.
Now what Im going to do with my life?
May 2015
Start working at Dominos.
Riding motorcycle from Banting to Glenmarie. Everyday. *Proud face*
June 2015
Still working my ass of that company.
July 2015
Unfortunately, I had two road accidents.
1) On my birthday - ironically the present I gave myself were scars, pain and lesson.
2) On 24th - I crashed another motorcyclist. Too bad I have injury everywhere on my left side of body and too stupid, I still going to work right after that. Talking about workaholic here lol.
p/s: and dont worry, still got 3 days MC.
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| Saya drive terbabas masuk parit |
August 2015
Believe it or not, the injury from last accident still affecting me badly which caused my energy to ride a motorcycle for 40km back and forth decreased drastically. I felt overwhelmed how worried my parents are- keep insist me to resign and not to mention, this is the most awaiting month for UPU result to come out. With a big hope of getting place in any public university - I resigned.
And, I did not get any offer.
Depression mode: ON
September 2015
Still depressed.
I who now jobless - trying to find a job nearby.
Too lazy to work.
October 2015
Happy to be free, I finally wore a braces! (been planned this for years)
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| Erghh,, |
November 2015
Officially graduated with Diploma in English.
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| Ini hanya ilustrasi semata |
December 2015
TV Show marathon non stop.
Seriously.
wow.
In a nutshell, 2015 taught me how to enjoy myself and stay positive, how to appreciate everything that I have, and most importantly, be grateful and never give up because everything happen for a reason. #seriously #cliche #keepcalmandpray
Last but not least, stop being such a lazy ass.
Oh, suddenly its already 2016. How time flies so fast. Haha k bye!
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