Bicara Hati

Welcome to Bicara Hati where we talk about heart, feelings and all those lovey dovey yucky stuffs here.
Its not February yet but thats not gonna stop us from talking about love , and for this infamous topic, we specially invited our stars for unknown show that flopped- Bicara Jantung, Tiffany! *clapclap*

Tiffany: Thanks for inviting me to what this show called again?

MC: Bicara Hati.

Tiffany: Is it like your heart talking or something? and to say that this program sounded a lot like my show Bicara Jantung. Are you trying to plagiarize here?

MC: *laugh nervously* Errr.. Ok forget about our unexisted show name. Lets talk about you instead. So Tiffany or should we call you ppani?, we heard that you get into a fight with your significant other, Taetae. Is it true?

Tiffany: *eye-smile* where you get that from? we.. we are happy! *nervous*

MC: We heard from inside source that both of you stop talking for 5 days. Is it true?

Tiffany: 7 days already if today counted.

MC: How come? As people claimed, you guys like the happiest couple. Mind to share the reason of it?

Tiffany: *sigh* Its not really a fight actually. We never yelling or go all crazy to each other.

MC: Then how is it? You guys silently send death threat through a blood letter?

Tiffany: *rolls eyes* It more to the situation where she get mad at me, give me silence treatment and i felt sad and bitter and both of us not talking anymore. Its always like that.

MC: Then who come first to apologize?

Tiffany: Depends on situation. Usually I'm the one who come first, apologize, begging, coax her with sweet words so i can see her smile again. But everytime, no matter whose fault is it, I will be the one who raise white flag first. Its like a habit.

MC: Its okay, the one who surrender doesnt mean they the loser. But how come she keeps getting mad at you? and everytime you need to take care of her feelings. Do you think its fair for you?

Tiffany: Totally unfair! The fight, its always start with her. Always! For ones, i never say something negative to her. I just say normal things in conversation but suddenly she's the one who get upset and boom! silence treatment. demmm i really hate that cold attitude. *almost cry* when i asked her what i did wrong she never talk to me. how im supposed to fix my flaws if she dont want to point it out. Everytime we having a fight, i will try to convice to her to communicate. But she always refuse to talk. She want to keep all inside and dont want to open up with me. For God sake, we have been together for 3 years, and still not improved in that part. Good communication is the key for success relationship, right?

MC: *give tissues* Toitally agreed. Most couple stay for a long time because they share what they felt. They communicate. I think its related with her personality?

Tiffany: Yes, she the quiet type of person so i cannot force her to talk all day, but at least talk to me. Is it too much to ask for?

MC: maybe you the last person she want to talk with while she upset?

Tiffany: Maybe.

MC: this current fight, is it also start with her?

Tiffany: Same cycle. I said something i think common, she get mad. Welcome silence treatment. Oh she even called me annoying. Am i that annoying?

MC: Sometimes.

Tiffany: Thought so. Thats why i didnt take into heart. I just want us to back like normal.

MC: Usually how long the fight last for?

Tiffany: Depends on how fast I try to win her heart back. Normally 2-3 days.

MC: then why this time it lead to 7 days? a week! *shock* you didnt try to coax her back like usual?

Tiffany: I dont know..

MC: I guess you already tired with the fight cycle isnt it?

Tiffany: Kinda. I hope this time she's the one who try to reach me first.

MC: so far?

Tiffany: Nothing. She even removed our picture in her dp whatsapp. - which i found very sad cause i edit that with all of my heart.. and her latest status on wechat implied that we already breakup. *sigh heavily*

MC: What if you guys truly breakup? *shockface*

Tiffany: Please dont say like that! >,<

MC: it can be if both of you stay silent like this. What if even after 14 days she still not contacting you? What if she did nothing to repair your relationship?

Tiffany: If thats happen, i guess im not that important for her.. Or I simply put away all my pain and bitterness and just text her back. Like always.

MC: I'm sorry. I think eveytime both of you fight, she's too ego to admit her feelings, and you too cheap to keep begging and begging *laugh*

Tiffany: *laugh* Yeah im such a weaker when it comes to her.

MC: Still we all know for sure that you guys love each other too much. Just dont let this stupid fight to stop this lovely relationship.

Tiffany: Thanks.

MC: Any last words? To your taetae maybe?

Tiffany: *look straight to camera* Taetae, please text me back! I will waiting for you.

MC: Do you think she will read this post?

Tiffany: No. No one actually read your blog *laugh*

MC: So true! *laugh with mix emotions*


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Tiffany: Heyy how dare you used me as bad example for the sake of advertisement! *bring torch and fork*

MC: *run away*


K bye see you later!

xoxo

Dilema budak sekolah.

Edisi Pelajar Tingkatan 4

Apabila cemerlang PT3. Langkah yang seterusnya pula ialah?

"Saya nak pindah MITS Bagan Terap.. Nak ambil sastera.. taknak ambil sains, tak minat.."

Setelah saya mengeluarkan kenyataan itu, ada segelintir pihak yang menyokong, namun lebih banyak yang membantah.

"Ustazah harap tahun depan masih kekal lah 15 orang dalam kelas tasmik ni. Ustazah yakin diantara kamu tiada yang pindah.."

- Guru kelas tasmik yang saya harap dapat khatam dengan beliau.

"Doa-doalah harapnya tiada siapa yang pindah. Bonda nak korang stay je lah kat sini.."

- Mentor yang kami panggil bonda.

"Kalau tak minat sains, minat tu boleh dihadirkan.. kalau nak pindah, ibu tak setuju.."

- Ibu yang mengharap saya ambil sains tulen.

"Jauhlah sekolah tu. Nanti kau cari lah keluarga angkat kat sana.. Ayah ambil waktu hari raya je haha.."

- Ayah yang tak kisah dan suka buat lawak.

"Kau ambil je dulu sains.. Nanti lama-lama kau minatlah.."

- Kakak kedua yang dulu ambil aliran sains.

"Ambil je lah sastera. Kau memang minat bahasa kan? Lagipun kau bukannya nak jadi doktor atau engineer.."

- Kakak ketiga yang memahami.

"Pelik.. orang lain punyalah nak aliran sains ni, kamu dah ada peluang tolak macam tu saja?"

- Kakak usrah yang saja bagi ayat sentap.

"Akak janganlah pindah.. tak meriah lah usrah ni nanti takde akak.."

- Adik usrah yang saya paksa jadi timbalan naqibah kalau saya pindah.

"Hanim.. betul ke nak pindah? Nanti takde sapa nak buat kerja nakal dengan ana. Dirah, Ain, Bosy sume nak pindah. Yang tinggal cuma budak-budak baik je.."

- Kawan dalam batch yang berani buat kerja nakal sama-sama.

"Jomlah nem pindah.. kita naik bas sama-sama nanti balik kampung.."

- Kawan yang sudah merancang masa depan bersama.

"Anem serius ke nak pindah.. stay jelah sini.. mengadalah !!*pastu pukul saya*

- Kawan yang tak sanggup kehilangan saya.

"Kalau awak minat sastera ambil jelah sastera. Yang penting result SPM awak straight As, dapat IPG dan mohon sambung belajar sini. Lagipun kalau ambil bidang macam akak ni memang takde kaitan pun dengan sains tulen.."

- Kakak yang kenal di wechat, belajar di beijing dan menjadi sumber inspirasi saya untuk belajar di China.

"Bagi saya, lebih baik kamu terus kekal di sini. Sebab saya rasa kamu mampu untuk bawa aliran sains ni. Lagi pula mengikut keputusan PT3, kamu layak sangat menyambung persekolahan di sini."

- Guru penolong kanan akademik yang sedaya upaya tak kasi sesiapa pun pindah.

Dan yang terakhir..

Thahirah, kawan perempuan first yang khatam dan dialah orang paling tegar menghalang saya dari pindah.

"Hanim.. janganlah pindah.."

Hanya mampu tersenyum kelat.

Sukar membuat keputusan.

Memilih antara persahabatan, minat, bakat, harapan dan masa depan.

"Saya harap kamu dah ada keputusan yang muktamad hari ambil result nanti. Sebab hari tu, nak atau taknak kamu tetap kena memilih aliran yang mana kamu nak.."

- sambung guru penolong kanan tadi katanya.

Buntu dan dilema.

50% - 50%

Maka sekarang mampu istikharah sahaja dan berserah diri pada Allah untuk berikan petunjuk yang terbaik.

Amin.

#throwback

Inspiring by one of my friend's little sister blog article about how awesome her 2015 summary; I - who depressed and unmotivated throughout last year felt ashamed. To redeem this unstoppable regret, i decided to write my own summary. (not to mention how i never post anything on 2015. do i even alive on that year?)

warning: its boring.


January - March 2015

Still a respectable student enjoying my last semestar.

April 2015

Finished studies.

Now what Im going to do with my life?

May 2015

Start working at Dominos.

Riding motorcycle from Banting to Glenmarie. Everyday. *Proud face*

June 2015

Still working my ass of that company.

July 2015

Unfortunately, I had two road accidents.

1) On my birthday - ironically the present I gave myself were scars, pain and lesson.

2) On 24th - I crashed another motorcyclist. Too bad I have injury everywhere on my left side of body and too stupid, I still going to work right after that. Talking about workaholic here lol.
p/s: and dont worry, still got 3 days MC.

Saya drive terbabas masuk parit

It different from my previous car accident, riding a motorcycle means you exposed all your body to danger and no protection given unless helmet on your head. Alhamdulillah I still alive but I have enough pain and scars so be careful next time thank you. *reminder to myself*
















August 2015

Believe it or not, the injury from last accident still affecting me badly which caused my energy to ride a motorcycle for 40km back and forth decreased drastically. I felt overwhelmed how worried my parents are-  keep insist me to resign and not to mention, this is the most awaiting month for UPU result to come out. With a big hope of getting place in any public university - I resigned.

And, I did not get any offer.

Depression mode: ON

September 2015

Still depressed.

I who now jobless - trying to find a job nearby.

Too lazy to work.

October 2015

Happy to be free, I finally wore a braces! (been planned this for years)

Erghh,,

November 2015

Officially graduated with Diploma in English.

Ini hanya ilustrasi semata

December 2015

TV Show marathon non stop.

Seriously.

wow.

In a nutshell, 2015 taught me how to enjoy myself and stay positive, how to appreciate everything that I have, and most importantly, be grateful and never give up because everything happen for a reason. #seriously #cliche #keepcalmandpray

Last but not least, stop being such a lazy ass.

Oh, suddenly its already 2016. How time flies so fast. Haha k bye!